Downstream

Reflecting on the unseen hands shaping our world, where influence is wildly disproportional, power unchecked, and the consequences cascade through lives unconnected to the actions.

A room. Or a table. Behind doors we don’t see.

A few people decide. Not you. And not me.

No one who will carry it sits in those chairs.

No voice from the thousands. We’re never there.

 

It spreads farther than clouds. Like oil on the ground,

set loose by a handful, then passing around.

They summon a burden with no rightful claim

except what they’ve taken in all of our name.

 

It moves from the few who don’t heed its edge,

who drive it forward yet quietly hedge.

A distance maintained, a safeguard they use,

a protection they keep that we don’t get to use.

 

They call it required. They don’t look twice.

Never into the faces absorbing the price.

And so it is sent, without being called,

to lives that had no part in it at all.

 

And some who have shaped it,

clear-eyed in their pride,

step back from the outcome

or thin out its tide:

 

Concrete walls.

A guard at the step.

What they loose on the world

they won’t have to accept.

 

I was not in that room. I had no say in it.

None of my thoughts had any place in it.

I did not design it. I could not say no.

Still, I inherit the path that they chose.

 

None of us counted when counting was done,

yet each of us carries what few have begun.

What started contained by a table, a wall

no longer resembles that moment at all.

 

The room is gone.

 

The table is gone.

 

What remains does not stay with them.

 

It stays.

There Is (No) Fire

There is no fire
he said
They just want you to think there is so you will be afraid

But there is smoke coming out of the vents
I am afraid.
Shouldn’t we leave?

That’s not smoke
he said
It’s vapour from the air conditioning

But those people over there are dying from smoke inhalation
I am afraid.
We should leave.

They are not dying because of the smoke
he said
(wasn’t it vapour?)
They are dying because people die

But the door is hot to touch, and there is smoke coming from underneath it
I am afraid.
Can we leave?

The smoke is because the door is burning
he said
(wasn’t there no fire?)
But it’s just the door, not the room we are in

But there are people screaming in the next room that they are burning
I am afraid.
I’m leaving.

The fire is in the house around us
he said, blocking the windows
(wasn’t it just the door burning?)
This room is not on fire, so we are safe here

But I am getting very hot, and the air is getting hard to breathe
I am afraid.
I wish we had left

The fire in the room is your imagination
he coughed
(did my imagination make you cough?)
The w

That’s Our Daughter

That girl who did the diaper waddle-run to greet me at the door when I got home.
The one who I caught and pulled up into a hug.
Who smelled like baby and joy.

That’s our daughter.

That girl who carefully arranged all the stuffed animals on her bed.
The one who gave a name to each one, and a backstory to explain their relationships.
Who cried when the dog ripped the arm off one but forgave the dog immediately.

That’s our daughter.

That girl who agonized over the dress she would wear to her grade 8 graduation dance.
The one who wore her grandmother’s earrings, even though they didn’t quite match.
Who said that it’s more important to have a piece of family with her than to be perfect.

That’s our daughter.

That girl who was so excited to go the concert with her friends.
The one who danced to the music with her eyes closed and her heart open.
Who heard the trucks approach but didn’t understand the sound.

That’s our daughter.

That girl we watched pulled by terrorists from a jeep, shirtless, with her head bent low.
The one who had blood running down her arms, and pants soaked in blood at the crotch.
Who stumbled numbly as she was herded away to choruses of “God is great”.

That’s our daughter.

That girl whose capture and rape is being celebrated as some kind of victory.
The one with family that had to watch that video.
Who we may never see again, except in our nightmares.

She has parents. She is their daughter. She is a daughter to us all.